How the black sheep became a witch!

I started diving into tarot cards and its magical energy in 2018-2019. My elder introduced me to "The Hoodwitch" on Instagram and I was hooked! I literally felt like I had found my long lost big sister and she knew exactly what I needed to heal, rise and accept that I had a calling on my life that was waaaaayyy different than how I grew up.

Growing up in my family dynamics was a mad house! I mean mad! We had drug selling and abuse, we had lots of alcohol, we had early teen sex, molestation, physical and verbal abuse and almost every other thing you could imagine within the family I was born into.

And some might even argue, the family I chose to come into. But that's still up for debate.

As a little girl I use to imagine I was a healer, lol. I or my cousins would get a cut or someone would get hurt during play and I'd wrap a leaf around it and say a few words to speed up the recovery process.

And I use to think I could communicate with dogs too. I would see stray dogs out and about and I'd test out my telepathy powers to see if they would recognize me, hear me or feel me. I'm not sure if it worked though.

I didn't like going to church really. I just enjoyed my grandmothers peppermints and dressing up with my hair done. That and the food we would eat after. But I hated church. It was long with lots of shouting and singing.

And plus I did not believe in Jesus. I just couldn't wrap my mind around this story no matter how many times my grandmother made me go. Jesus did not die on no cross and especially not for me!

In my later years, pre teen and up, I was, as well as my cousins, molested by older family members. Not only was I molested by family members, I was touched sexually by my neighbor, Tasha Frye. I use to go to her house in the mornings before school because my mom would have to work. And one morning she crossed all boundaries.

I was forced out of my virginity by a boy named Rick. He use to hang with my cousins down at my aunty house and he was so fine to me. But he was a bad boy. Always in trouble, smoked weed with the other boys who hung around that area. But I liked him. He reminded me so much of my daddy.

Black, so weed and bad!

He pulled me in the apartment hall one night, and talked me into sneaking him into my aunts house. Where, in the bathroom, he wanted to "pop my cherry". I was so young. I had to be between 12 & 14! And I let him talk me into that painful, disgusting experience...

Fast forward to my actual teenage years. After experiencing homelessness with my mom who was on drugs at the time. And not really seeing my daddy no more since my mom finally left his abusive ass. He use to beat the shit out of my mom. I mean really bad. Call her names and everything.

Well once she left, he called his self not being involved with us as much. And when he did come around it wasn't to raise us. It was purely to see what my mom was up to, brag on us ( me and my big brother) to his friends (because my mom combed my hair and made us look nice, so my dad took credit for it).

At some points my dad was in and out of jail for drugs and domestic violence so that played apart in how much we seen him as well.

I moved out at 17. Got into my own apartment and never looked back since. Growing up was tumultuous, and very wrecking of everyone's nervous system.

But I finally moved out on my own and did what I wanted!

The journey I had from a little girl to now, you wouldn't believe it! I can almost assure most of you wouldn't have been able to survive it, let alone fathom it! I was chosen to rise from the ashes. To dead the story of poverty, lack and a statistic that was scripted for me by this matrix! I was selected by the Universe to transmute this whole sha'bang into my greatest life's work ever!

Which was literally duplicate what I saw growing up. Smoke weed, drink liquor at the clubs, talk to the dope boys and hang with the fly girls. Life was great. Lol! I didn't have to listen to anyone. I can finally tell my parents how I feel. I wasn't forced to go to church, even though my grandma tried to guilt trip me into going every second she seen me by calling me a "sinner".

May she continue to transition in peace. I know deep down she was only doing what she thought was right.

During this time I was dating women too! I also dabbled in escorting. My brother had a caucasion girlfriend who was being paid for dates. He introduced us and boom, I too was getting paid a pretty penny to date these weirdos!

I started to notice this was making me the black sheep of my family. I stopped going to family functions (dysfunctions). I stopped listening to advice from the elders in my family because none of them was living a life I wanted to so it made no sense to accept anything they said as standard.

I went back to school and got my GED and then went on to attend the University of Cincinnati for Criminal Justice. Completed that, and then decided I wanted to open up my own salon, so I went to beauty school; and completed that.

During this time I started having children. My oldest sun who is now 20, my middle sun who is now 14 and my daughter who is now 10 helped me put my life into perspective. And although I wasn't quite deep into my spiritual journey consciously, little did I know I was still having a spiritual experience.

My walk thus far was preparing me for the woman I am and continue to become today. And low and behold I became more of a black sheep. Because now I'm coming into my own idea of the woman I want to be and was designed to be.

I'm really not hanging around familiar faces no more. But really it was me leaving one dysfunctional family, for the creation of my own dysfunctional family. I was having children with men who didn't love me. I was making friends who I only partied with. My life at this stage still wasn't what it needed to be although I made some decisions that was "good" for me.

Like college. Like starting a business.

It wasn't until I hit the age of 33 that I realized I was truly meant for so much more. And although I still made mistakes, I was failing forward trying to figure out who I was really! My purpose felt bigger than just school and working. Yes I was a mother, and that is apart of my purpose as well. But it wasn't meant for me to stay small, and follow my family tree.

After moving back from Atlanta where I learned more about my cosmic greatness, and my true heritage and learned the importance of studying numerology, ancient kemet and how our minds truly create our world, and how witches weren't really evil, they were healers and magical people from respectable scholars and spiritual sources; I had to level up.

Even if that meant fighting against everything and everybody I knew.

I didn't come from Africa directly on a slaveboat. My ancestors were already here. My bloodline is from these native lands. I was not a statistic or a "fast ass", just lost, perverted and exploited as a young girl. I was not a mean girl nor a "keeping up with the Joneses" type; I just hung with those girls because I wanted to feel loved and like I belonged. I was not a descendant of slaves, but of Kings, Goddesses and royal beings in this world and other worlds and higher dimensions.

I was a High Priestess, hidden in chaos, trauma, destruction, and assigned identity. I was a being who mind became warped by this matrix. I was a reflection of the Supreme Great Mother, who made it my birth right to be able to transmute pain and alchemize my way back home!

Back to me.

So I started diving into the occult sciences. Learning about numbers, and my connection to planets and stars. Reading about ancient brujas voo doo and hoo doo. I was drawn to spiritual energy and magic and all the wonders of the universe.

I've witnessed super natural events and became more interested in aliens, and beings and entities that existed way before us!

I felt myself detatching from this program and creating a reality that best suites my ascension! I am amstering the art of quantum leaping and the creation of luxurious timelines. I spend a lot of time studying my oracle and tarot cards, and the benefits of balanced chakras.

I script in my journal trnasformations I'm having that I've only dreamed of or witnessed through other people. I learned I have no savior, I am the only one who can save me and that increased my magic.

I literally have taught myself with assiatnce from my higher self, my spirit and spiritual guides, how to be a woman of virtue, substance and immense power. Reprogramming my subconscious mind and rewiring my brain to believe I deserve better and I'm worthy.

I give offerings unto my orisha and gods and goddesses I am connected to. I do root work. healing work and focused work to bring about change from the spiritual into the physical.

I intentionally, everyday try my hardest to be better, clearer, more light hearted and honest. And through all of this I learned my purpose, my gifts and my calling; to help assist others in discovering their power, purpose and mission. To be an example of triumphing through tragedy and show others it's possible to literally change the trajectory of your life, and your family's legacy.

Self mastery is a choice, and I chose me! Some today call it witchcraft, while others in resonance with me call it alchemy! I call it from black sheep to witch! What would you call a re-raising of yourself? Let me know in the comment section below.

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